I can taste it, I can sense it...yet it is still to come.
On March 27, I will be taking the comprehensive exam which is a compilation of all the work I have done this past 3 years in preparation for social justice work in the mission field. I have learned many things about families, people, and the dynamics of working together to help others embrace who they are, develop their full potential, and be empowered to leave exploitative situations. This comprehensive exam will be an example of a case which I will have 4 hours to take through the seven phases of the helping process.
My heart yearns and aches to see people transformed not for an earthly good, but for heavenly. The problems, injustices, poverty, lack of love, rich and poor, government and non-government funded programming will always be with us according to the order of this world, but my orders come from a HIGHER order.
The HIGHER order is where I want to be. To bring people to the feet of Jesus so that they can be touched by him and changed forever regardless of their earthly circumstances is the greatest cry of my heart.
I am praying about what that looks like for me, how can I be the witness that God has so graciously called me to be? How can I lead others so that they might experience His goodness, love and be transformed and freed? I believe powers of this earth including internal meditations and other practices can only bring temporary or false freedom, but His freedom is eternal and has eternal reward.
I say I am on the brink of something new: I have seen doors open for work in Argentina, in West Africa, in India, in Latin America. I desire nothing more than that the Lord continues to confirm and direct my heart.
Please pray with me that I will diligently do the one and two things in front of me now, while urgently seeking the Lord for the things that will be after graduation.
Thank you all for your prayers. Forever seeking His face.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
The Deacon Who Preached...
As I sat in church this morning to a message about John the Baptist, I was struck by several things that John the Baptist did and DID NOT do. He did not try to be someone he was not, nor did he have any pretense about being Elijah or the Prophet. He recognized his ministry and His call to prepare the way for the coming of Messiah and he walked in that call. He was humble...Jesus thought of John the Baptist higher than John thought of himself.
A story was told about a man named John Egan. John was a church deacon who woke early one blizzard-like Sunday morning and almost didn't leave because the snow was so blistery outside, but it occurred to him that if he did not go... others would also not go. As an example, He felt it was important for him to be there so he got his snow gear on, said a word of prayer and headed over to the church. That morning, twelve people had made it out to the church in the snow but the pastor was snowed in, and they had a young guest who was thirteen years old. They talked about canceling the service, but instead the deacon decided to get up and preach because they had made it out there. He preached about 10 minutes. He had much to say but did not say it eloquently and in fact little was remembered about that message except the last few minutes, when he looked the 13 yr old right in the eye pointed his finger at him and said, "Son, Look to Jesus..." Look to Jesus...
this 13 yr old boy gave did Look to Jesus and the light of the Son of God was revealed to him... He later became the renown Charles Spurgeon who preached to many.
This story startled me in service today and brought me to tears. Again, I come to tears just thinking about it. If this deacon was faithful with what he had, gave the message to the best of his ability, even if his ability was slight...the Holy Spirit did the work! The Holy Spirit works on our behalf. He asks us only to step out in faith and do our part to answer the need. I cried because I long to be faithful like that, to share the gospel with those who need it. I sense the urgency of the days we are living in, and though my words may not be eloquent, though not all may receive the message, the Holy Spirit says, "speak, share the truth, be my vessel." The times are so short, and I can't help but think...what if a loving hand extended speaks a thousand words, how is my life telling people, "Look to Jesus"?
It has never been simply about going on some foreign mission half way across the world, although I have had that on my heart for ages. It has never been simply about adventure, ultimate sacrifice,...Its about the day to day, its about people gaining an understanding of truth, its about choices... giving people a choice they did not understand to be in relationship with God. He's God...yet he wants relationship with us. not demanding us to be perfect, not demanding us...but asking us to take his Hand, to recognize Him, to follow Him.. I want nothing greater than this!
I feel called to "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every nation..." I don't feel like I "measure up" to this calling, but that does not matter. What matters is that I respond to the Holy Spirit as He leads and guides my heart regardless of the cost.
I want to be the kind of confident leader that can say with boldness, "Follow me, as I follow Christ." To live in such a way that I am not ashamed for others to follow that example. My God and my King,... Help me. I follow you!!!!
A story was told about a man named John Egan. John was a church deacon who woke early one blizzard-like Sunday morning and almost didn't leave because the snow was so blistery outside, but it occurred to him that if he did not go... others would also not go. As an example, He felt it was important for him to be there so he got his snow gear on, said a word of prayer and headed over to the church. That morning, twelve people had made it out to the church in the snow but the pastor was snowed in, and they had a young guest who was thirteen years old. They talked about canceling the service, but instead the deacon decided to get up and preach because they had made it out there. He preached about 10 minutes. He had much to say but did not say it eloquently and in fact little was remembered about that message except the last few minutes, when he looked the 13 yr old right in the eye pointed his finger at him and said, "Son, Look to Jesus..." Look to Jesus...
this 13 yr old boy gave did Look to Jesus and the light of the Son of God was revealed to him... He later became the renown Charles Spurgeon who preached to many.
This story startled me in service today and brought me to tears. Again, I come to tears just thinking about it. If this deacon was faithful with what he had, gave the message to the best of his ability, even if his ability was slight...the Holy Spirit did the work! The Holy Spirit works on our behalf. He asks us only to step out in faith and do our part to answer the need. I cried because I long to be faithful like that, to share the gospel with those who need it. I sense the urgency of the days we are living in, and though my words may not be eloquent, though not all may receive the message, the Holy Spirit says, "speak, share the truth, be my vessel." The times are so short, and I can't help but think...what if a loving hand extended speaks a thousand words, how is my life telling people, "Look to Jesus"?
It has never been simply about going on some foreign mission half way across the world, although I have had that on my heart for ages. It has never been simply about adventure, ultimate sacrifice,...Its about the day to day, its about people gaining an understanding of truth, its about choices... giving people a choice they did not understand to be in relationship with God. He's God...yet he wants relationship with us. not demanding us to be perfect, not demanding us...but asking us to take his Hand, to recognize Him, to follow Him.. I want nothing greater than this!
I feel called to "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every nation..." I don't feel like I "measure up" to this calling, but that does not matter. What matters is that I respond to the Holy Spirit as He leads and guides my heart regardless of the cost.
I want to be the kind of confident leader that can say with boldness, "Follow me, as I follow Christ." To live in such a way that I am not ashamed for others to follow that example. My God and my King,... Help me. I follow you!!!!
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