Wednesday, March 17, 2010

My heart is troubled

I see so many needs in this world and so little time. It is comforting to see the grace of God at work in our world, and the great news is that He is coming soon to take us home. The great news is that we are His children.

The realization of my own selfishness has been quite startling to me. I would like to be radical and go out to see the dreams in my heart come true. But not out of selfishness or for vain glory.

It would be better then for me to stay in my own country, rather than go out to another with vain ideas. The problems that we see here are startling. The truth is that God's grace is not selfish. God's grace is given freely to all regardless of our human stipulations.

What kind of stipulations do we put on grace?

Do we give grace EXCEPT for when it means injustice? Maybe we can give grace except for when we have been offended?

Can we give grace except when it is admitting our own imperfection?

Can we give grace except when it may mean temporary failure?

Can we give grace except when it is just taking TOO long or it is the VERY last straw?

What kind of grace does Christ give? and... are we, or are we not His imitators?

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Never Give Up

You were called with a purpose

All of us have our story. Mine starts in an anxiety filled home, parents who love each other unconditionally, and 2 amazing sisters.

I remember getting into my closet and singing to God, singing from my heart, the safest place I knew and the most comforting as He wrapped His arms around me; and standing in front of my mirror as a little girl singing melodies to him when my house was full of chaos.

Later on, my mirror wasn't my friend anymore as I looked and saw someone I thought was fat, ugly and too selfish. What happened to that simple childishness, that simple faith? God has always been there, He didn't let go of me because of how I felt!

#1 Feelings can be deceptive

Called to be a missionary at a young age, it became the place I entirely focused on. My world became a battlefield, and from a young age my eager zeal to demonstrate God's love to my friends and the world consumed me. I knew I had found my purpose.

I remember crying myself to sleep some nights because I felt trapped by my fallibility and I just wanted to be perfect. I was so afraid that I was hurting God by sins in my life. Whenever I failed, I felt it deeply. I was taking responsibility for something that I later learned was not my job. I felt pain for God. I thought we were hurting him and it was sad.

He already paid that on the cross. He already suffered. It is Finished.
I was missing the point. Our humanity makes it impossible to do better and we can only choose to receive His grace.

Every Sunday night, I listened to "This world is not my home" on the radio as I lay in bed, praying to God that I might soon be "HoME" with Jesus. I saw myself as a messenger on earth and that it was my job to share the good news with everyone around me.

The world has been corrupted from its original purpose which is to bring glory to God, but we have an enemy who has captured mankind through vanity, desirous of the glory for himself. He is the truest man hunter and has lied to so many people, but the true Son of God came to free us from the enemy's evil plan and to free us from the curse of death. Praise God!

The Bible says we must be born again in a supernatural act of God in order to enter into true life. This life is one that we must all die to at one point, for we cannot live forever in it, but if we become united with Christ and are born of His spirit by faith in Him, we will live forever. This is a trustworthy promise.

God's love never fails.

God's love had been my greatest comfort and joy during family conflicts. The Bible says he has no preference.. He is just. Meaning... He loves YOU and ME equally! and I know that must be an incredible amount when I see how much He loves me!

So often, I see hurt and anxiety where God intends to bring peace, comfort and love.

God loves you demonstrated through Christ the Savior of mankind.
If we are his children, we are marked by His Spirit for the word says he has put his mark upon us, and we know we are God's children when we receive his forgiveness and grace which he freely offers through the blood sacrifice of his Son Jesus Christ the Holy Lamb of God who is the Only perfect man who has ever existed, and Rose from the grave because of His authority. He died to pay for our punishment giving us everlasting life with him.

I'm not here to impress anyone or to gain a name for myself or to make people feel good.

The believer is here to complete the work of Christ... which was to testify to the truth which is very VERY good news. The enemy doesn't want you to know it... because this truth is the key to power of EVERLASTING LIFE with the FATHER in BLISSFUL LIGHT where there is no darkness.

Wake up. God is real, and the time is coming that the Savior of mankind, Christ Jesus of Nazareth, is returning for His people to take them home.

DO not be surprised at his coming. Be prepared for it.

I bless you in the name of the Almighty and I plead the ears of all who will hear to hear, and the eyes of all who will see to see.

Never Give Up.


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